this is one of the pre-karen & pre-new york songs. a song about wanting what i've already had. some continuation of my childhood, if possible: the town & country, ocean & land, friends & family, blackberries & mud. time. space. some more life before death.
i play wurlitzer and sing. eliot krimsky plays the magnus organ. garth stevenson plays bass. me, mike johnson and karen nedivi play percussion. my cousins, ted and jeff lennon, sing along.
i don't know who took the photo of me, ted lennon, & dan malloy standing on the beach at santa cruz island. maybe mike malloy.
i’m a man of small goals.
i haven’t changed much.
i look up to curious georges & raggedy annes.
i want a rooster & hens;
a spot on a beach without plans.
i want to stand up,
dancin’ with a form
that’s changin’ as it comes
& breaks & goes;
on until it’s foam
& on until it’s wind that’s blowin’.
i got a fully grown frame.
i got undeveloped film.
i still don’t know what’s with my carburetor,
but what’s with my car is with baton rouge.
i’m a bum on the way.
i’m in other people’s jeans.
i’m happiest fallin’ asleep,
but i want to want to wake,
leave the dreamin’ world,
climb out the window & jump on the hill.
i want to stand still on a changin’ form.